Monday, February 25, 2013

the word "in"

Sometimes your days do not turn out like you want them to.

Sometimes life does not either.

Sometimes moments pass us by...

                               while others consume us.

Sometimes tears fall and words fly.

Sometimes forgiveness comes....

                               while other times we let it die inside.

As I sit here in front of this overly bright screen I am pondering this evenings  events, fighting  off medicine that is beckoning sleep,  and trying to sort out the words in the  verse that jumped out at me tonight....

Earlier this evening (okay maybe  30 minutes ago) Adam and I got into a little (way little) tiff that made me upset. I went and sulked in my bed, a big 3 year old I am, and he went and took (and  is still taking) a shower. As I lay in my  bed, brooding over the thoughts of how rude he was and how I just won't talk to him tonight, my  eyes  set gaze on a devotional I picked up at church this past Sunday.

So I opened it up and of course the first line would read in nice bold printed italicized words....

 "Forgiving each other, just as... God forgave you." 

Ugh! Okay... well, I already picked it up might as well finish it... three reads later and a bible open to the actual verse and here I am typing away on my computer.

These are the words that were profound in the devotional:

  • The power of forgiveness is an awesome thing.
  • ...forgiveness sets both sides free...
  • The truth is, it is easier to forgive an enemy you seldom see than a loved one you have to live with every day.
  • with the issue without attacking the person...
Great! Right? No... not even close... the verse blew me away.

Ephesians 4:32 says this... Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

read it again...

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God  forgave you.


Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as IN Christ God forgave you.


  1. his son's death
  2. his son's torment
  3. torture
  4. the hardest thing a parent could do
IN this.... in all of this God  still forgave you. He forgave you, he forgave me.... and IN THIS... in this.

Tears just pour down my eyes in humiliation, because 1. Adam did hardly anything wrong and 2.... I'm sure I have yet to forgive things not nearly as bad as what God has forgiven me for... for placing my sins on his son, placing my filth, my shame, every sin.  Yet, I sit here forgiven...  without forgiving.

God's compassion, his kindness forgave me for the worst thing that could ever happen... his son's death because of me.

Through this the next verse (Eph. 5:1) says this... "be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love..."
 a life full of love not hate. 
A life that reeks of forgiveness, not bitterness.
A life that bursts at the seems with God's grace.... 


Lord, this is where I have  failed you. I hold bitterness in my heart. I let myself die with it inside, but Lord I want to die to this idea, to a better one. A life of me imitating you... in the workplace, in the home, in the city, and alone. Lord... let me be overwhelmed by your presence and when I am not let me crave it ever more. Your beauty does not fade and your light is not hidden. Shine on me. Shine on me so I can shine onto others because this is where I have failed you. I let darkness overcome but where there is light there is no darkness so shine on me. 

Forgive me, and shine on me.


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